A Promise of A Life Time

2011-05-17T13:41:00.003+08:00

So after a long while, I'm once again back to blog. It is going to sound more like a complain entry for me hence just bear with me, or else you may choose to 'X' this window.

Seriously, even after living together for a good 2 years... I still don't feel like I belong here and I do feel shitty having to put up with; acting like and pretending to be. It is just so freaking tiring and stressful for me.

I don't understand why doesn't they respect me for who I am. What I mean was... I am fine that they doesn't agree to my religious views because different people has different point of views. But me, I believed. So why don't you all keep the awful comments to yourself instead?!!

Ok. I guess all of you are so blurred as in why am I getting all so pissed and unhappy. Allow me to do the explanation...

It all started with 'them' trying to organize a dinner for a Post Mother's Day Celebration @ the restaurant which I held my wedding dinner at, with that, I'm fine with it. And then they randomly fixed a date without asking for opinions, I'm too fine with it. As it happened to be on a Saturday. One of 'them' couldn't make it due to hectic work schedule therefore they changed it to a Sunday. But after changing, another one couldn't make it cause he's going for a short get-a-way trip. Then they finally settled on today, which is Vesak Day.

It happened to me that today is a special day for the Buddhist therefore it is a 'no meat' day for me. So I sounded out to 'them', telling them that I won't be able to eat because I will be on Vegetarian for the whole of today. However, I got nasty comments instead, like...

"Aye, what's the big issue, you go there take Vegetables lor. Else you seat beside 'who' to share her portion of vegetarian food lar."

"Tell your shifu, you will be on Vege till 6pm. After that you can have your feast with us liao, our dinner starts at 7pm."

So you guys know what's gotten me so mad? I mean 'they' wanted to celebrate 'Mother's Day', obviously I should have a share too because they claimed that I am a mother also. Therefore should go "enjoy" myself. But now you see why am I so mad?

Simple as that... because I am not happy so what makes them think that I would be enjoying myself when they needed me there just to add to the numbers they required for the tables they have reserved.

I mean so what if I assumed that was the case. So what?! I mean wasn't it obvious... 'Others' said they can't make it, they quickly rearrange a date to suit them. When I say I can't make it, they told me all the craps.

The main issue is, these 'others' ain't a mother but I am. So this is how they wanted me as a mother to celebrate my Mother's Day. Give me a F-ing good reason that I should go when me, as a mother myself don't really bother about this special day. My reason being that my son is still so young, he won't know what's the meaning or purpose of this occasion. And frankly, as a mother myself, I did already be so happy and contented that my son is learning to call me, "ma....mee, ma.. ma.. or mee..."

Therefore I come to this conclusion that they only bother about their own Mother's Day, not that Mother's Day as a whole. Then I see no point of me wasting my money to be there to tolerate their comments of me serving my 'no meat day' on Vesak Day. Agree?!

I totally agrees. I think being me, I have done my part and giving in my very best. Therefore I see no reason of me being selfish to myself just to be kind to others. I've finally learnt this... being kind to others is being selfish to yourself. And since I cannot put up with the shit that I will be going through, why should I give in?

2011-04-13T19:22:00.004+08:00

Slam myself back to reality yet again...

Somehow it just make me wonder, why can't reality be as perfect and beautiful like those seen in drama shows. Why life... can never be like a drama.

Been sick lately... and it has really been a quite a long while that I could rest like that. But somehow brought me to my fascinating (day-dreaming) world and I felt like I'm back to living in my own world again.

It really made me think deep, deep about my life... what I have accomplished so far.

I feel so aimless. What's life all about again?

If only there's reincarnation...

My next life, may I request to be that female lead of that drama that never fails to make me feel that my life seems so dull.

2011-03-21T23:34:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile... Yes, I have to admit it.

My very first post for the year 2011, I actually and only got it 'typed' in the month of March. Well, I shan't explain much in this case as it might be just another excuse from me. :/

A sudden urge that brought me here to blog yet somehow I don't know how and what I am suppose to blog again. Been feeling rather emotional lately that makes me feels like penning my thoughts. But seriously, what's on my thoughts now?

Beats me. Sigh.

What's there in life now I should be aiming for? I feel lost somehow and I need an guardian angel tonight please, just be with me for at least a couple of nights...

I wish, I were, I pray, I was.

2010-12-31T15:57:00.005+08:00

Yet another year is ending soon... and I really detest it as it never fails to make me feel exceptionally emotional.

2010

It has been a fruitful and fulfilling year for me. I feel pretty proud of myself for pulling through this afar. And these were the reasons I have and am proud for:

1. I went and sat for 3 GCE O'levels paper
2. Gave my parents a monthly allowance
3. Brought my parents for a short holiday, my treat
4. Successfully host a 1st birthday bash for Darling Kes aka Doudou
5. Gotten a source of monthly income, even though it was a contract position

These were the things I have fulfilled from the list of Goals I have set for myself for year 2010. The followings were off my wish lists in this very year too...

1. An accounts job position
2. A new digital camera, fulfilled by Dummy
3. Holiday overseas with Girlfriends at my own expenses
4. Holiday overseas with my Lil' Guan Family
5. Passport for Kes Darling, also fulfilled by Dearest Dummy too.

Honestly, it has been a rather tiring year for me as I need to learn to juggle among career, family and friends. And I doubt I have done a good job. It's seriously not easy for me as I often feels tired easily. Daily when I gets home from work I did feel so restless already. Left with very limited energy to play with Kes Darling as he's getting more and more active with each passing day. Not to even mention going out to meeting friends.

Yet at least there's something I felt contented about with my life. Age 21, a working mother of one and have a blissful marriage. I am glad that I am able to provide not only for myself but a living for my son. I have a hubby who dots on me, even though he can be much of an annoying fellow at times. But I am thankful to him for standing by me each time I hit the lowest point of life. I won't deny that I am at times a problematic and demanding wife. I would get stubborn and calculative at times, but Dummy never fails to give in to me eventually. And I have my parents who dots on me ever more, showering me with more care and love which at times makes me feel annoying. =x

Lastly, I have my good friends with me. Friends I considered them as my sisters, Jaslyn, Wandee, Huiling and Carman.

All in all, what's more could I demand for?

And in year 2011, this shall be the goals I am setting for myself:

1. Get a permanent position job
2. Enroll myself for a Diploma Course
3. Get my Driving License which I didn't fulfill in year 2010
4. Earn more money
5. Holiday overseas with my friends again
6. Bring my parents for a holiday again, this time via Air transport
7. Get Kes darling an insurance premium
8. Travel to more Countries
9. Enjoy my life to the fullest

I hereby wish all of you,

HAPPY 2011!

In this very year, I wish all of you to excel in your career/ studies; stay healthy and happy; and may god of luck knocks your door.

恭喜恭喜

2010-11-24T13:24:00.001+08:00

It seems so dead here...

Guess my blog has turned rusty already~

How fast~ A spanking good 4 months has passed in a blink of eyes and our Darling Kes has turned 1year and 12days old.

So much changes in him, in his life including ours too. Be it for the good or the bad times, I'm glad we pulled through today. Nevertheless, it has been a blessing for me to have a little family of my own since the age of 19.

Just like I have posted in my Facebook status before, 12 Nov'10, Angeline:

"Today marks the first year of us being together as 1. It also marks my first year for being a young mommy. Nonetheless, today means a very very special day to me, as I am very grateful for his existence. Without you, I wouldn't lead a life so close to perfection. Thank you Darling Kes. HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY TO YOU~!! I LOVE YOU AND DADDY SOOO MUCH~"

For without Kes existences, Dummy and I wouldn't have gotten married. Without the marriage, I wouldn't have learn to treasure and cherish my own family even more. And with the my family's support, I wouldn't have been able to make it through my pregnancy time till now. And without everything I wouldn't get to lead an enjoyable and meaningful life right now~

I am thankful for the every little things that has occurred since~ For without them, I wouldn't have come to realized that... I am a rich girl. Not in terms of money, don't get me wrong. But in terms of my life, filled full with lots of love. And for all I know, in which ever situation I'm in, they will always be here for me.

I LOVE YOU ALL VERY VERY MUCH! :)

Pics over the 4 months not in sequences though. Enjoy~~ :D

2010-07-16T13:34:00.004+08:00

Another month has passed... am still dreading to update my bloggie.

Let me rest a little while more and I'll be back with more updates and pictures.

And just before I hit on the "x", let me wish my Baobei...

HAPPY 8th MONTHS OLD!!

STILL THE SAME OLD SENTENCE,

MOMMY

LOVE YOU

MORE THAN EVER...

4 more months to your 1st year, Daddy and I will have to start preparing for your DAY soon~

2010-06-14T22:41:00.014+08:00

A couple of things to update... 1st in the list,

HAPPY 7th MONTH TO YOU,

MOMMY'S PRECIOUS!!

Our 宝贝Doudou is already 7 month old, and in another 5 months time he will be in his 1st year. Being his kiasu mommy... I have started brain-storming and saving as much $$ to make a some what grand 1st birthday bash for him.

Doudou in his 7th month, he has:

-grown his bottom 2 front tooth

-learnt to crawl with his tummy off the ground

-learnt how to move forward when seated in his walker

-cut down on the number of times for milk; not drinking as often than before

-getting amused and curious by things around him very easily

-getting choosy and being fussy

-knows what is "swimming" and loves to go swimming

-loves to watch Taiwan's News /movies /dramas, depending on the genre

and it goes on... and on.

2nd in the list to update:

Our list of activities never seem to get any shorter since, it just got longer that our programs planning have stretched till the mid of September.

Last night, have booked our trip to Hai Yat during the September short Holiday. It's confirmed we are going, together with Dummy's family and relatives. My first ever experience taking the plane as well as Doudou's first. How great, I hope everything goes smoothly, am so gonna shop like a craze over at Thailand.

Also, we have planned to bring my parents and sis for a short getaway to Batam on the first weekend of July. I shall book the tickets this Saturday. It's gonna be Doudou's first ferry trip to Batam.

3rd in the list to update:

This Saturday would be Travis 1st Birthday...

HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY

TO TRAVIS,

IN ADVANCE!!

How fast, he's already 1 year old, haven't had the chance to meet him in person since I know his exist. Hopefully I'll be able to bring Doudou to attend his birthday party. I can't confirm just yet as Dou Daddy will be working, I don't know if I could manage Kesler alone and bring him all the way to Pasir Ris. :/

And last on the list to update are... photos!!

Photos taken during Dummy's and I first Anniversary spent at Universal Studio... Then Doudou's 1st trip ever to the Zoo together with his 2 Dou Yiyi. And the most recent photos taken was the previous Saturday, we brought Doudou for his 1st swimming session at Jurong Safra!

How cool, every weekend there will be a little bonding session for both Dummy and Doudou... to mend up for the loss during the weekdays.

Here comes our Universal Trip...

Next, is our star, pictures of Doudou taken at home, during the Zoo trip and Swimming @ Jurong Safra...

That's all~

2010-05-30T21:44:00.005+08:00

By the way,

HAPPY BELATED

ANNIVERSARY

DARLING!!

1 year, isn't a long duration but it neither was a short one. I hope you enjoy being with me and Kesler for the past 1 year... and many many more years to come. ;)

2010-05-30T21:15:00.002+08:00

Squeezing a little time out from my busy schedule, I'm once again back to blog... ;)

Life has been ever so busy since, my daily routine got so standardized already, from Monday to Friday it will be work, home for dinner, play with Kesler, sleep... and this cycle will keep repeating till Friday. And on my weekends, it will be back to Sembawang home to accompany my parents and sis, do some shopping else I'll be rotting the whole day away. Then during the night I would stay up late to study till the next morning... return back to Serangoon home by Sunday evening to get prepared for the coming week, the same old cycle again.

And now that I have booked my TP on the 23rd July, my Saturday, I'll have to squeezed in a slot for 1hr driving lesson @ Ubi. Hectic life, it's super duper tiring that makes me feel like breaking down especially when it comes to work... yet there did be times I find it so fulfilling, because I know every second and minutes of my time, I am making use of it. =)

Anyhow, continue to update on the progress of our deary Doudou, he is now... :

-Still drinking 150-180ml of milk every 3 to 5 hours interval, except for lunch and dinner, he will be taking semi-solid food.

-Gabbing a lot more of his baby language these days

-Would move about in his bed like a worm does...

-Getting more and more active as he loves to seat in his walker to move about in the house and grabbing everything that's within his reach.

-Enjoys TV programs, especially during his milk or meals

-Knows how to hold on to the teether/toy/ biscuits to eat

-Stuffing anything that is in his hand into his mouth

-Keeps drooling non-stop when he's awake

-Loves bathing

-Loves Mickey-mouse and Stitch cartoon character

-Loves to sleep in places where there's air-con (besides shopping malls), especially during car rides

-Smiling widely and laughing loudly when you call his name and/or play with him

-He is learning to crawl now, also trying to seat on his own without support

-Being mischievous like crying for you to carry him when he knows you're free

-Knows and loves to go "gai-gai"

-Knows how to behaves and/or pretend to be innocent when I scolds him

All in all, there's too much progression in him that I can remember every single bit. And no matter how or what I did still love him as much. =D

2010-05-21T13:32:00.005+08:00

I know it has been passed 9 days.

Sorry for being late but still,

Happy Belated

6 Months Old Baobei!!

I almost forget that very day our precious Doudou hits 6months old and during this few months, he has progressed a lot.

From fully milk to milk plus semi-solid. Recognized people and things around him, etc, etc... Give me time, I'll be back to update more in detailed.

Just a little note to dearest Kesler,

However busy I may get/ or be...

However less/little time I had with you...

However little bonding session there maybe for the both of us...

However little attention I had given you,

Please remember, it is because I am out striving hard to acheive a better, more comfortable living for you and me, as I wish to provide you the best I can give.

And no matter how little time we have together...

There will always be something that will never ever get any lesser;

that will be my love for you.

You're always on my mind, heart and soul.

Your one and only,
Dearest Mommy.

2010-05-03T09:28:00.059+08:00

To all my dearest friends, whom has be worrying about me and wondering where I have been to/doing.

Just to let you know, I am fine... Doing good. =) Sorry to have keep you all worrying.

Life has been ever more busier and hectic since I returned back to work. I haven't got much time to blog as the previous Saturday (the week after I last blogged, 18 Apr) Doudou's turn to fall sick, he was running a temperature due to the 5th month vaccine he had on that every Saturday. My poor boy, took him days to recover and be well again.

Anyway, I just got home from my 2days 1night trip to Malacca with my little Guan family and Dummy's family... Which means the recent last Saturday, I spent my time in Malacca. My very first trip overseas with my little family, Kesler's first time being out of Singapore and my second time overseas for holiday trip. Its rather fun and enjoyable I would say... but the duration is just too short for me to conquer all the shopping malls nearby my hotel, otherwise it would have been perfect. Teehee~!!

I have with me now are tons of pictures taken during our trip, and tons of pictures which as promised to upload from my digi cam that are way over-due.

Shall first update the over due photos first.

Now photos taken during our Malacca trip... On our way there, our first day...

2nd Day at Malacca, sunrise...

All the stuffs we have bought at Malacca, some are real cheap, take my favorite perfume as an example, it only costed me around SGD 10 for 100ml.

I guess the total spending for this much was about SGD 150? More or less...

That's all for now... Shall blog again soon~

2010-04-27T20:11:00.002+08:00

Life,

have never been easy for me,

has never offer me anything better,

besides Kesler!

2010-04-18T09:09:00.002+08:00

Another Saturday has passed just like that... I wanted to blog last night but was again, feeling unwell. I was having a fever last night.

Thank god, I'm so much better now else I might have to drag myself to work with that sickly face on Monday. Yeah, I cannot afford to take MC as I need to rush out some stupid report by Monday. Its a waste of my time but what to do, I am paid to do the job.

Work has been really hectic, it got me so busy that a week passes just like that without realizing that weekend is once again here. And now that its a Sunday today, which means another new week is starting, yet again. I wonder when my pay day will be. Hopefully soon, because I am so in need of some retail therapy due to the amount of stress I had to cope at work.

You can never imagine how freaking tired, both mentally and physically I am, especially after work I will have to be home to look after Baobei and tidy up the room and Doudou's stuffs. At times I even wonder what kind of job am I actually working for... because at some point of time, I see myself having to keep photo-copying those stupid documents while others keep demanding it from me, just because I am the first to received the documents. Darn it! Why can't they just go search the arch file to retrive that piece of information they need. After all they are the one who needed it, not me. Why must they make me behave like some mad donkey searching high and low for that piece of information which doesn't concern me at all after retriving. It's so not the job I have applied for.

Anyway, good thing is its just a contract-based position. After which I'll get to choose if I wanna stay or leave this company. But the bad thing is, I may or may not get converted into their permanent staff. Argh! Tell me how? It's freaking paranoid.

2010-04-11T01:15:00.009+08:00

Without realizing... I have been working for 3+weeks coming to a month soon. And this coming Monday, our dearest Doudou will be 5months old. Time flies, I am glad I have managed to hang-in there till today. :)

A merely 3+weeks of work has created much horror to my life. Getting me so stressful and tired plus upset. I know, it would be a good career prospect for me if I stay here for like say, 2 years? But how much more will I be able to hang in there without the moral support and encouragement I need badly?

Honestly, at times I wonder to myself, how much longer can I endure and tolerate!? In everything that I do, it just doesn't seems right for me, for us. In my heart, I just knew that something wasn't right anymore and since then, I dare not imagine or even foresee what lies ahead for me, for us.

I tried being better, but I found that the harder I try, the more tired I feel. Things just don't feel the same like before. I just don't know why... why does living feels so much tiring now then before? Tell me, its just my emotions that are acting up. I'm just being too paranoid. Sigh.

Anyway, last Monday I had been feeling unwell. Felt really giddy, loss of appetite and my whole body was in aching pain. Brought myself to the family doctor and continued working after taking the medicines even though I was given 2 days MC. I guess its just the lack of proper rest. I am a lot better now but would still have the dizzy spell and/or heavy head every now and then. Hms... I should really start to take good care of my own health, otherwise how would I be able to feed dearest Doudou...

Pardon me for being so random in this post. I just don't seem to be in a proper mood for blogging yet I still feel to pour my emotions out somewhere. Blog is the only space for me now, where it wouldn't talk back to me or reason things out with me. At least it did allow me to rant at everything and anything I wish to. :/

Anyhow, shall stop all the rantings and share all the photos that has be accumulating in my mobile phone and my new toy. A present from Dummy, thanks dumb! :)

I super love this expression of Doudou's
:)

This naughty boy of mine refuses to look at into the lens

Look, what got him so excited?!

Pardon me for the blurry photo, because naughty boy is too
busy observing his Ah Yi's room

And here's the present from Dummy when
I came home from work one Wednesday evening

Tah-Dah! Its a Canon new toy

Brand new IXUS 105
Nothing compares to DSLR but I'm contented enough
:)

Wanted to read the guide menu
but I was too tired for it

Cool~

That night, I tried taking a few pictures using my new Canon Camera. I wanna share those photos with you people too... but I have no idea why my sis's notebook cannot read my SD card from Canon Cam. Is it because of the 'HD' that the SD Card has? Hms~ Shall find some day free to check it out...

Never mind, I'll make sure I get those photos uploaded soon to share with you all... Lots of adorable pictures of Dearest Doudou is accumulating in it. =p

That's all for tonight then.

Gonna stay focus on my revision work now~ Good night people.

And oh, I almost forgot...

HAPPY 5th MONTH

IN ADVANCE

BAO BEI!!

MOMMY LOVE YOU LIKE ALWAYS

AND

EVER!!

*KISS

:)

[P.S: I am intending to purchase apparels from Forever 21's US Website, anyone interested to tag along? As the shipping charges would be a lot cheaper if we ship in bulk. Do drop me a message ya? :) Males apparels are available too @ www.forever21.com ]

2010-03-27T00:12:00.010+08:00

Feeling super duper tired right now, but I realize I haven't been blogging for quite awhile. Thanks to Dummy's fellow colleague, he brought me the motivation to blog a little despite the tiredness in me.

It was days back when Dummy told me about an funny incident that occurred during his work. And that is when I felt rather pleased with myself. Although having a blog and keeping it up-to-date these days are rather a common thing among us youngsters, but I still feel that sense of achievement in me that my efforts has been recognized?! Because my blog has been visited by not just my dearest friends but strangers. But of course, most importantly my main purpose of having a blog is to mark every journey I experienced since the day I had Doudou. I wish Doudou will get to read them when he grows up. =)

Back to main point. I have been really busy, lots of stuffs to keep you people updated, including way due photos which I haven't had the time to post them up... and I don't think I'll have the time to post all of it, so I shall just share part of it.

A quick update (in point form). Up to date...

-I had started and have been working since the previous Monday 15th Mar.

-back into accounting line, I'm currently working in an MNC, advertising firm.

-work is super tiring still, I'll have to hang in there, hopefully I'll be able to pull through this 6months.

-rather sad to learnt the news that my Lead will be leaving his job position in another one month's time, although it has been a very short period but its nice working with him. =)

-life for me now is awfully busy especially when I'll be taking my accounting exam this coming Tuesday and I have yet to complete revising.

-having to juggle among work, family and studies = SUPER DUPER TIRING!! I have been OT-ing since last Friday night, I wonder when will I need not OT anymore.

-I seriously need a lot more time to spend with my family, especially my Baobei as these few nights when I get back home from work, he's already asleep and when I go for work the following day, he's still sleeping. =( I need more time for bonding with him.

-I feels rather upset while at work at times, especially when I miss Doudou lots, I felt sad that I couldn't have all the time to spend with him as I am busy with work.

ARGH!! I just so feel like screaming out!

Well, anyway, my dearest Baobei had just went for his 4th month vaccine on Wednesday. Lucky thing is that he didn't get fever but usual thing, he would keep fussing for the whole day (that was what I heard from my MIL). Thanks to her, she helped me to look after my dearest Baobei and brought him for his vaccine while I'm busy at work. And of course I'm thankful to Dummy too. He has been of great help lately... sending me to and from work, looking after Baobei during night time and his off days.

I bet most of you are rather concern about Doudou. Wonder if he's alright with his mommy, me, getting back to the workforce and leaving him home with his grandma. As far as I can see, Doudou seems alright... he didn't fuss when he sees me leaving home for work. The only time he would make noise is when he sees me back home from work, he did ask for me to carry him first thing first when I stepped into the house. Hahas. :)

I guess, that's all I have in mind to blog now. I am feeling real tired now that my brain seems to stop cooperating with my soul. So I guess I shall end today's entry here with the photos below...

Enjoy!

Taken after his 3rd mth vaccine, poor boy down with fever.

Cam-whoring...

It's me, again

and again.

That's Baobei in his new Bumbo seat.

He doesn't really like it because he feels constraint.

Half-naked, looked like some uncle in the coffee shop

Hearts his cheery smile.

Anticipates his first attempt taking the rice-cereals

Tastes weird to him...

but *yum yum*

The recent him riding on his gu gu's ultraman~

Pardon me for the blurred pic, as Baobei keeps fidgeting

Enjoying himself...

Smiling so widely...

That's me after work around 9plus, while waiting for the lift...

For your info my office is at level 34, madness! But the view out from the window is awesome.

The sunset that was taken from my work desk's.

Beautiful, ain't it?

And last of all, the very latest photo of our dearest Doudou.

Keeps fidgeting non-stop...

That's all~

Till then, do take great care people!

P.S.: I'll be attending Navden's Full Month Celebration... Anticipate to meet Valerie's little lovely boy. =)

2010-03-11T11:47:00.008+08:00

It's just ONE more day

till

my 宝贝

hits FOUR MONTHS OLD!!

Just in case I get too busy and missed it out...

HAPPY FOUR MONTHS OLD

MY PRECIOUS DARLING!!

MOMMY STILL LOVES YOU MORE THAN EVER!

Being close to almost four months, Doudou is currently:

- drinking about 180ml every 3 - 5 hours interval

- drooling ever more saliva

- learning to grab things and stuff it into his mouth

- currently he is able to grab his hankie, shirt or our hand to stuff it into his mouth

- likes people to speak to him as he's gabbling a lot more than before

- loves to watch TV while drinking his milk, he did make lots of noise till you place him right in-front of the TV

- he would push his milk bottle away (while feeding) if he's feeling full already

- he is starting to throw his tantrums by screaming loudly

- learning to laugh like we do, example "ahahahhahhahhas"

- learning to crawl

- learning to sit up-right on his own without support

- kicks real hard

- grab and pull your hair or your shirt if you're carrying him

- sleeping longer period of time in the night but would still wake up once in the middle of the night for milk

- loves to flip over while sleeping to sleep on his tummy

- and I suppose he is learning to recognize people

as lately he did cry for me to carry him once he sees me back home from interview

All and all, he's my favorite love.

Dearest Kesler,

I hope you wouldn't get mad with mommy for deciding to get back to the workforce. I feel sorry that

I would not be by your side 24/7 to witness your growth and every first moment.

Mommy sincerely hope that you would be able to understand my intention,

as I wish to earn the extra income to not only provide for you but for us, a better living.

With that extra income mommy have, I'll be able to bring you out for shopping more often

and buying you the clothes, toys or food that you like.

Perhaps those clothes and toys cannot replace the time lost spent being by your side,

but I assure you, mommy will find most of my free time being with you.

For every decision I make, I could have been a little selfish and neglect your feelings

but I really do meant well for our future. =)

Always remember, Kesler, Mommy loves you the most!

With lots lots Love,

Your one and only,

Dearest Mommy. ("v")

2010-03-02T19:50:00.010+08:00

I have been rather busy since before the start of CNY till now.

I had been busy with the spring cleaning and the preparation of CNY and then for the CNY visits during the first two days of CNY, this year, being the first CNY I'm spending with my little family of 3, we had many places to conquer. Then after the first two days of New Year, I had to arrange and bring Doudou for his 3rd month vaccine appointment at the polyclinic, meanwhile having to also pay visits to Dummy's grandparents (both Ah ma and Yeye) whom had to spent their CNY very unfortunately in the hospital. And after our poor boy had his vaccine, I had to stay home to look after him throughout as he was down with fever for 2 freaking days. Those 2 days were mad tiring.

And after all the celebrations, I'm currently busy with job-hunting while looking after Doudou in the day and during the night I'll be busy studying for my fourth paper for my accounting exams this coming end March.

Yes, yes, I have become a very busy mommy, thus explains why I have been so draggy when it comes to blogging. So do pardon me alright~?!

Squeezing a little time to blog right now as I have tons of overdue pictures to be uploaded and share with you all...

Pictures from way before CNY...

Doudou doze off in my laps while watching tv together with me

'Ah Bu Nehneh' Doudou,

just out from his bath-tub

Sleeping very soundly~

You notice his drools? Hehe^^

Very comfy on his 'La Bi Xiao Xin' Matress

Being very active, he finally mastered the flip-over, freeing his right arm

My sweetie posing for the cam

Handsome boy trying out his CNY clothing

bought from the Robinson Expo Sales

Taken after shopping and dinner at United Square

The naughty boy trying so hard to sit on his own

Me and my adorable son

;)

Say 'Cheese' to the Cam

Very innocent look

So bubbly and cheerful

My personal chef cooked me

Creamy Crab for dinner weeks before CNY

Doudou's first attempt in his brand new walker

Obviously he's loving it

Trying his new cap bought from his Mama

(Paternal Grandmom)

So cheery smile~

Im so in love with my bubbly son

Frown a little while staring at the Cam while I call him

First day of CNY in his new clothes with Daddy

2nd shot and he's still not looking at the Cam

Now my turn with my handsome boy

2nd shot but failed

3rd shot

With his aunt

2nd Day of CNY, on our way for visits

Last pic for today...

I hope all these pictures can mend up for the losses~

That's all~

2010-02-22T10:15:00.003+08:00

A video to share for now...

Starring our little precious,

Enjoy!

Will be back soon.

Stay tuned!

2010-02-13T11:40:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 3rd MONTH

TO OUR LITTLE PRECIOUS!!

Baby Kesler hits his 3rd month yesterday, 12th Feb 2010... But because I was rather busy yesterday cleaning and packing the house, thus I totally forgot about it until the later part of the day. I'm sorry Doudou, Mommy is just too forgetful already.

Anyway, I was suppose to bring him for his Jab yesterday noon but too, I forgot everything completely. Of course, I didn't intend to bring him for the jab last noon hence forgotten about calling up the clinic to change his appointment date. Reason being, Its CNY, I don't wanna see my poor boy suffering during such a joyous occasion. I want him to be a happy baby, spending his first CNY with us happily and not sulking/crying and cranky the whole day long due to the after effect of taking the jab. Thus, I have decided, I shall bring him for his jab on Chu 3 or 4. =)

Currently 3 months old, our precious is:

-Still drinking 150ml of milk but at every 3 to 4 hours interval.

-Able to sleep longer period of time during the night.

-Getting real playful and noisy.

-Loves attention

-Laugh and smile more often than before.

-Seldom flips over as compared to previous month.

-Crying to seat up and watch TV very often, but because he's still unable to support himself completely, we have to hold him up to give him the support

-Will turn his head around if he sees you walking infront of him.

-Will respond to you if you call him or talk to him, play with him.

-Is starting to be afraid of ticklish.

All in all, he's still as naughty because he often cry for me to carry him around the house. Especially when he know that I'm home alone, he tends to bully me. =(

But of course, out of the all in all, he's still my precious, ever so lovely and adorable. Hehe!

The same old statement, he's still growing both physically and mentally... and my love for him grow deeper too. => No matter how naughty, playful and cheeky he is, I still love him more like always.

Dear Kesler,

Grow up to be a filial son, remember to love mommy too alright?!

With lots lots Love,

Your one and only,

Dearest Mommy ("v")

2010-02-11T23:58:00.006+08:00

I don't know why...

but

I'm just so not in the

right mood to blog lately.

Perhaps there has been

too many things for me

to be busy with...

Too many things

for me to think about...

But I promise,

I'll get back to blogging ASAP!!

See you guys around...

And, before I go,

Allow me to wish you

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!

May you be blessed with

a good year ahead,

in the year of the TIGER!

With lots lots LOVES,

Angeline ("v")

P.s.: Happy First Lunar Year to my Dearest Boy, Kesler! Mommy love you the most, no matter what lies ahead of us in the year of TIGER, I'll always be there for you. Make sure you'd be here for Mommy too alright?!! =>

*Kiss*

2010-01-30T12:41:00.011+08:00

Honestly speaking...

I'm kinda lost in blogging. I don't seem to have any more fresh ideas to blog about, neither do I have any happening incident occurring lately... of course my precious gem is an exception. Everyday, he brings me new surprises, making me a very joyful yet tiring mommy. Hahas!

Joyful because of the smile on his faces, the little actions that he's been doing as he's learning a lot more things these days. Tiring because each time he gets cranky or keep fussing I'll have to carry him and walk around the house just to hush him down. Super tiring that got my back bones aching... feels like my back bone will break anytime soon if this continues. Ahhhh~!! Well, what to do, no matter how tiring I'll still have to hang in there, for he's my precious love! =)

This time I'm back with truck load of photos of our precious Doudou again... This little monster has surely grown alot bigger than before, a lot more smarter, naughtier, playful and of course a lot more adorable. Hehe!

13 more days till little monster hits 3 months old, and poor boy, he will be having his jab on the 12th of February, just 2 days away from CNY!! Grr.... Hopefully fever won't haunt him after the jab.

Currently 2 months 2 weeks and 3 days old, Doudou has learnt to flip on his own but still with his right hand stuck underneath. He will talk and or scold you in his own baby language. He is also learning to sing with his own baby language and dance in his own moves. Super funny when he dance... Lol! Now he even sleeps like a big baby, while sleeping he will toss and turn to sleep on his sides or on his tummy.

Alright photo-sharing time... :)

Seating own his own watching TV

Mommy love

Precious

Showing off his sexy little butt

Out with Little Kayla and her mom

On the way back Sembawang home

That's all...

Till then, take great care! :)

2010-01-26T22:45:00.002+08:00

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2010-01-22T13:58:00.008+08:00

I'm back, to upload photos that are way over-dued. As mentioned, I'm back to share with you photos that are taken during our outing with my Jiemei, Jaslyn. "Our" because I brought Doudou along too.. and seriously, Doudou seems to love going out sooooo much.

These days, whenever me or we are bringing Doudou out, I will tell him, "Gai gai, gai-gai. Mommy help you change, wear handsome handsome and bring you out gai-gai." With that, he will never fail to respond me by flashing his cheeky little smile. Awww~~ How adorable. ;)

If I didn't remember wrongly, it was last Thursday that I brought Doudou along to meet Jiemei out. Its his very first time meeting with Jaslyn Ahyi and very nice of her, she came over to pick us up before heading down to Orchard together as she has a Dental Appointment to rush for. And after Jiemei's Dental Appointment, we spent our afternoon roaming around the shopping malls of Orchard Road. From Wheel Lock's to Ion's to Wisma to Taka then arrive at Somerset 313.

We took all the photos at 313's Roof Terence... and seriously, I hearts jiemei's dslr lar. I heard that she bought it at relatively cheap price and the out come of the quality is rather beautiful. =p

I cannot remember what Doudou was staring at...

I guess he was staring at me?

Cause he's not looking at the Cam.

Then awhile later, he smile and dozed off.

Jaslyn and I

I know I look like ghost in all the pics here. Looking very pale.

Then Jaslyn took pic of me together with Doudou whom has fallen asleep.

The crazy mommy and Kesler.

I then offered to help Jaslyn take a pic with Doudou too.

I can see that she really love Doudou lots.

But I know she love me even more lar. Wahahahhas.

Sleeping Kesler

My adorable Little Monster

It's been so long since we take pictures together.

;)

My another Best-est half

With Doudou

Us 3.

Close up

o.0

Where did another half of Jaslyn's face gone to?!

My chubby boy yawning.

Jaslyn's first ever experience carrying Doudou

You know why he's staring at me this way?

Looking rather Freak-Out...

because...

I was wearing Jaslyn's BIG ass specs

And then with her housefly looking shades.

Hahas.

Done with the photographing and chit-chatting, we were waiting for Wandee and Huiling to head down to meet up. I wanted to intro my Jaslyn to Wandee and Huiling too... but well, because mis-communication, they 2 went to Wisma's Food Republic to find us while we were actually at 313's Food Republic's Roof Terence. And because Dummy was about to come down and fetch me home, Wandee and Huiling abort the thought of walking down Orchard Road to 313 to look for us.

Jaslyn and I then headed down to Plaza Sing as Dummy will be picking me up from there... end our outing with Jaslyn there. It's been rather a short meet up session, as we were either eating, or feeding Doudou, walking around looking for Nursery Room to change Doudou's Diaper while thinking of where else to go. Haha.

That week's Saturday, I did meet up with Jaslyn again.... we went to AMK Hub for lunch and chit-chatted quite abit. But this time, I did not bring Doudou along, left him at home with his Daddy while I relax abit being alone with my friend. :)