 Sunday, May 13, 2012
 Never expect me to please you... at 9:40:00 PMI can never seems to please anyone, so why not just leave me as I am?! This way, one would never get anymore disappointment from me... And I would never have to feel this tired anymore. xoxo, a lifetime promise 迷失了 at 2:46:00 AM
又在一次的迷失
迷失在自己的世界理
到底心想要的究竟是什麼
確一次又一次的猜不透
只能一又一次的問。。。
幸福是什麼？
xoxo, a lifetime promise Tuesday, May 17, 2011
at 1:41:00 PMSo after a long while, I'm once again back to blog. It is going to sound more like a complain entry for me hence just bear with me, or else you may choose to 'X' this window. . . . . . . Seriously, even after living together for a good 2 years... I still don't feel like I belong here and I do feel shitty having to put up with; acting like and pretending to be. It is just so freaking tiring and stressful for me. I don't understand why doesn't they respect me for who I am. What I mean was... I am fine that they doesn't agree to my religious views because different people has different point of views. But me, I believed. So why don't you all keep the awful comments to yourself instead?!! Ok. I guess all of you are so blurred as in why am I getting all so pissed and unhappy. Allow me to do the explanation... It all started with 'them' trying to organize a dinner for a Post Mother's Day Celebration @ the restaurant which I held my wedding dinner at, with that, I'm fine with it. And then they randomly fixed a date without asking for opinions, I'm too fine with it. As it happened to be on a Saturday. One of 'them' couldn't make it due to hectic work schedule therefore they changed it to a Sunday. But after changing, another one couldn't make it cause he's going for a short get-a-way trip. Then they finally settled on today, which is Vesak Day. It happened to me that today is a special day for the Buddhist therefore it is a 'no meat' day for me. So I sounded out to 'them', telling them that I won't be able to eat because I will be on Vegetarian for the whole of today. However, I got nasty comments instead, like... "Aye, what's the big issue, you go there take Vegetables lor. Else you seat beside 'who' to share her portion of vegetarian food lar." "Tell your shifu, you will be on Vege till 6pm. After that you can have your feast with us liao, our dinner starts at 7pm." So you guys know what's gotten me so mad? I mean 'they' wanted to celebrate 'Mother's Day', obviously I should have a share too because they claimed that I am a mother also. Therefore should go "enjoy" myself. But now you see why am I so mad? Simple as that... because I am not happy so what makes them think that I would be enjoying myself when they needed me there just to add to the numbers they required for the tables they have reserved. I mean so what if I assumed that was the case. So what?! I mean wasn't it obvious... 'Others' said they can't make it, they quickly rearrange a date to suit them. When I say I can't make it, they told me all the craps. The main issue is, these 'others' ain't a mother but I am. So this is how they wanted me as a mother to celebrate my Mother's Day. Give me a F-ing good reason that I should go when me, as a mother myself don't really bother about this special day. My reason being that my son is still so young, he won't know what's the meaning or purpose of this occasion. And frankly, as a mother myself, I did already be so happy and contented that my son is learning to call me, "ma....mee, ma.. ma.. or mee..." Therefore I come to this conclusion that they only bother about their own Mother's Day, not that Mother's Day as a whole. Then I see no point of me wasting my money to be there to tolerate their comments of me serving my 'no meat day' on Vesak Day. Agree?! I totally agrees. I think being me, I have done my part and giving in my very best. Therefore I see no reason of me being selfish to myself just to be kind to others. I've finally learnt this... being kind to others is being selfish to yourself. And since I cannot put up with the shit that I will be going through, why should I give in?
xoxo, a lifetime promise Wednesday, April 13, 2011
at 7:22:00 PMSlam myself back to reality yet again... Somehow it just make me wonder, why can't reality be as perfect and beautiful like those seen in drama shows. Why life... can never be like a drama. Been sick lately... and it has really been a quite a long while that I could rest like that. But somehow brought me to my fascinating (day-dreaming) world and I felt like I'm back to living in my own world again. It really made me think deep, deep about my life... what I have accomplished so far. I feel so aimless. What's life all about again? If only there's reincarnation... My next life, may I request to be that female lead of that drama that never fails to make me feel that my life seems so dull. xoxo, a lifetime promise Monday, March 21, 2011
at 11:34:00 PMIt's been awhile... Yes, I have to admit it. My very first post for the year 2011, I actually and only got it 'typed' in the month of March. Well, I shan't explain much in this case as it might be just another excuse from me. :/ A sudden urge that brought me here to blog yet somehow I don't know how and what I am suppose to blog again. Been feeling rather emotional lately that makes me feels like penning my thoughts. But seriously, what's on my thoughts now? Beats me. Sigh. What's there in life now I should be aiming for? I feel lost somehow and I need an guardian angel tonight please, just be with me for at least a couple of nights... I wish, I were, I pray, I was. :s
xoxo, a lifetime promise Friday, December 31, 2010
at 3:57:00 PMYet another year is ending soon... and I really detest it as it never fails to make me feel exceptionally emotional. 2010 It has been a fruitful and fulfilling year for me. I feel pretty proud of myself for pulling through this afar. And these were the reasons I have and am proud for: 1. I went and sat for 3 GCE O'levels paper 2. Gave my parents a monthly allowance 3. Brought my parents for a short holiday, my treat 4. Successfully host a 1st birthday bash for Darling Kes aka Doudou 5. Gotten a source of monthly income, even though it was a contract position These were the things I have fulfilled from the list of Goals I have set for myself for year 2010. The followings were off my wish lists in this very year too... 1. An accounts job position 2. A new digital camera, fulfilled by Dummy 3. Holiday overseas with Girlfriends at my own expenses 4. Holiday overseas with my Lil' Guan Family 5. Passport for Kes Darling, also fulfilled by Dearest Dummy too. Honestly, it has been a rather tiring year for me as I need to learn to juggle among career, family and friends. And I doubt I have done a good job. It's seriously not easy for me as I often feels tired easily. Daily when I gets home from work I did feel so restless already. Left with very limited energy to play with Kes Darling as he's getting more and more active with each passing day. Not to even mention going out to meeting friends. Yet at least there's something I felt contented about with my life. Age 21, a working mother of one and have a blissful marriage. I am glad that I am able to provide not only for myself but a living for my son. I have a hubby who dots on me, even though he can be much of an annoying fellow at times. But I am thankful to him for standing by me each time I hit the lowest point of life. I won't deny that I am at times a problematic and demanding wife. I would get stubborn and calculative at times, but Dummy never fails to give in to me eventually. And I have my parents who dots on me ever more, showering me with more care and love which at times makes me feel annoying. =x Lastly, I have my good friends with me. Friends I considered them as my sisters, Jaslyn, Wandee, Huiling and Carman. All in all, what's more could I demand for? And in year 2011, this shall be the goals I am setting for myself: 1. Get a permanent position job 2. Enroll myself for a Diploma Course 3. Get my Driving License which I didn't fulfill in year 2010 4. Earn more money 5. Holiday overseas with my friends again 6. Bring my parents for a holiday again, this time via Air transport 7. Get Kes darling an insurance premium 8. Travel to more Countries 9. Enjoy my life to the fullest I hereby wish all of you, HAPPY 2011! In this very year, I wish all of you to excel in your career/ studies; stay healthy and happy; and may god of luck knocks your door. 恭喜恭喜:) xoxo, a lifetime promise Wednesday, November 24, 2010
at 1:24:00 PMIt seems so dead here... Guess my blog has turned rusty already~ How fast~ A spanking good 4 months has passed in a blink of eyes and our Darling Kes has turned 1year and 12days old. So much changes in him, in his life including ours too. Be it for the good or the bad times, I'm glad we pulled through today. Nevertheless, it has been a blessing for me to have a little family of my own since the age of 19. Just like I have posted in my Facebook status before, 12 Nov'10, Angeline: "Today marks the first year of us being together as 1. It also marks my first year for being a young mommy. Nonetheless, today means a very very special day to me, as I am very grateful for his existence. Without you, I wouldn't lead a life so close to perfection. Thank you Darling Kes. HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY TO YOU~!! I LOVE YOU AND DADDY SOOO MUCH~" For without Kes existences, Dummy and I wouldn't have gotten married. Without the marriage, I wouldn't have learn to treasure and cherish my own family even more. And with the my family's support, I wouldn't have been able to make it through my pregnancy time till now. And without everything I wouldn't get to lead an enjoyable and meaningful life right now~ I am thankful for the every little things that has occurred since~ For without them, I wouldn't have come to realized that... I am a rich girl. Not in terms of money, don't get me wrong. But in terms of my life, filled full with lots of love. And for all I know, in which ever situation I'm in, they will always be here for me. I LOVE YOU ALL VERY VERY MUCH! :) Pics over the 4 months not in sequences though. Enjoy~~ :D         
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