My name is Angeline, you may call me Angel in short. Old friends of mine known me as MeiLin. :)
Twenty candles on the 2nd November '09.
Currently a Home-maker since I gotten the title as Mrs Guan Chenyang on the 28th May '09
and I am a young mommy of one, that makes me known as Dou Mommy.



My Loves♥




My beloved Hubby, Guan Chenyang also known as Dou Daddy.





My beloved Baby Boy, Kesler Guan Kai Si
Known as Ah Dou (Doudou)
Born on 12 Nov '09 via Assisted Delivery with Epidural
Gestation Period, 37 weeks 4days.
Birth Weight, 3.445 kg. Birth Length, 50 cm. Head Circumference, 34 cm.
Delivered by Dr. Lawrence Ang @ Thomson Medical Centre.







You may visit Kesler's Website for more of him. :)





My family, from left to right, My dearest Daddy, dearest Sister and dearest Mommy
Also known as Dou Ah Gong, Dou Ahyi and Dou Ah Ma




My OtherLoves♥



The Famous 3, Dou Ahyi(s)
From left to right, Wandee, Carman & HuiLing





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at 7:28:00 PM

Officially call Mrs Guan Chenyang, yes I am.

Today is the day,Dummy and I agreed that we shall live together as one from this every day on... to love, comfort, honor one another and keep each another in sickness and in health and forsaking all others, be faithful to one another, so long as we both shall live.

I did take lots of pics. But as I am already too tired today, I shall blog again another day, pardon me for this. =)


at 2:15:00 PM

My solemnization will be held this Thursday and I am not feeling a tiny bit of excitement. Why is this so? Am I normal?!!

Lately, I haven’t been feeling good. I felt so depressed. I feel lonely because everyday, I’m home alone. Waking up from my sleep in the noon to be seating in front of the tv, beside my notebook while playing FB’s Restaurant City, I’ll be watching the tv aimlessly… till midnight when I feel tired and its time for bed.

And I found myself repeating this cycle every other day… besides time like I had friends to company me out with or my Dummy is free to bring me out.

Soon, I see myself as a burden of my parents, my sis and Dummy. Reason is because, I had always been working to feed myself… but now that I’m no longer working; I had to depend on my parents and at times Dummy to feed me. I feel guilty about it. I felt freaking bad about this. Because everyday of my life I just eat, sleep, waste resources…etc… I am indeed terrible, am I not?!

Each time I felt down, I feel like turning to someone to pour my sorrows to. But I have none. I don’t have many friends, needless to mention girlfriends. And I cannot be possibly pouring sorrows to my Dummy because he’s already so stress with work and school. He did be feeling so tired already by the end of the day. Further more we always end up arguing because of our different point of view.

I’m feeling so terrible right now as I am typing this out, I am crying. I really feel useless of myself… when have I lost the courage and strength for the sake of my little gem?!!

To my precious little gem, mommy loves you a lot. Really! I pray very very hard that you will be fine, strong and healthy. You must be strong to fight your way through as you have already been so strong and won among the millions. Mommy doesn’t mind bearing all the pain, for as long as you’re strong and healthy. You must come to this Earth to be a happy, healthy and strong baby! Mommy will love you no matter what happen, my beloved.


at 5:38:00 PM

Poor me… I have been sick since Tuesday. =( Was down with fever, flu, cough and sore throat.

It was torturous I must say. Started to have mild headache on Tuesday morning, didn’t care much as I refuse to take medicine and thought it was because I didn’t sleep properly the night before thus the headache. But who knows, the pain started to get worse in the evening so I surrender and pop in 2 panadol then went to bed.

Woke up 2hours later and sms Dummy to get me popiah to eat as I have sudden craving for it plus I haven’t had much appetite that day. Finished up my popiah and headed back to bed thinking that I would be fine the next day.

On Wednesday morning while I was preparing to go out to get food for myself, I started vomiting and kept coughing … Till I got so breathless and strength-less that I had to get daddy home to buy me food and bring me to the doc. Nowadays it’s so expensive to see doc, it cost me 50bucks just for some panadol, painkiller for throat, cough syrup and inhaler.

And after taking the costly medicine, it still didn’t cure me… not even a single bit. Instead I start to get sicker. Started coughing profusely in the middle of the night that causes me so breathless and I was unable to get much sleep. Despite puffing my inhaler every 4hours it only cures my congested lungs for awhile and then I will start coughing profusely and vomiting again and again. It caused my mommy and my precious dog to lose sleep just to look after me throughout the whole night.

I still end up having fever that hitting up till 38.2degree the very next morning. =’( Suffering! Thus mommy and daddy decided to bring me to the doc again, this time back to my own family doc. Seen and were given more medicines to eat but of minimal amount to cure me.

Thankfully, I’m feeling so much better now… but still don’t have much appetite though. For the past days I just drank milo and take a few mouth of porridge before taking my medicine.

And after so much suffering, I must say, it was my bad, I quarreled with Dummy on Wednesday night because I felt that I was so sick and wish that he would come over after work to company me awhile but he didn’t… instead he told me he had to rush home to do his assignment. Upon hearing that I felt like I was nothing to him, cannot be compared to his bball training, his work nor assignment…

Of course I know work and school is important because he needs to feed me and baby. But goodness, I was already so sick. Is it really so tough to fork out an hour or two to keep me company?!

I hate it so much that each time we argued about how little time he has for me, he would then threaten me to quit school. Saying things like, he will quit school, as he cannot take it but he will still work because both the baby and me needs the money. Then he questioned me if I felt that he hasn’t been treating me good enough. =(

See, he never fails to make me feel guilty about each quarrel. Argh!!
Ignored him for the whole of Wednesday (he didn’t bothered to sms me too, yes whole day) till evening, about 7plus he called my home to ask my mommy what size is my feet… >.<’’’ I know he wanted to buy me my favorite pair white heels for our wedding day and to coax me but I told mommy to tell him not to buy me shoes or heels… as I very “ban-dang”. There is an old myth that says lovers are not allowed to buy shoes for their lover else they would run away. I know it sounds stupid but it’s always better to believe than regretting right?! LOL!!

So after he hanged up with my mommy, he then called my cell phone. >.<’’’ asking me if I want go out not, he come fetch me to buy. And I was like so pissed lar… tell him not to buy still ask me wanna go out to buy not. So I told him, if he wants me to run away from him then buy me more heels and shoes, I don’t mind, but I am too sick to go out. Then I complained to him how sick I had been and that I haven’t had much appetite to eat. Have yet to take my dinner too.

The never fails to melt my heart Dummy then ask if I wish to eat anything, he will go get it for me. But I say no need because I totally got no appetite, needless to say cravings for anything. Then he says ok, he will come over to see me. Hahahas! Must like that then he will come see me ah? X=

Anyway after he hanged up I teared. Idiot Dummy, never fails to melt my heart and make me feel guilty. Add on to it, he even call me while on his way to my place and ask if I would like to eat sushi not, he can go get me some. But I say no, I don’t feel like eating my favorite sushi also.

In the end he still went to buy me fish soup ah. Cause I need at least some food so that I can take my medicine. But I only take a few mouths despite his efforts of running about searching for my favorite food to please me to eat. Sweetie Dummy even got me bird nest to drink… =p and I told him last night that even if he give me my favorite abalone, crabs, shark fins soup…etc, I also no appetite to eat. Hahahahas!

Till now that I’m feeling better I still cannot bear to drink the bird nest he bought for me. So touching lei, first bird nest he bought for me wor. And for the whole day long I just kept staring at my bottle of bird nest. >.<’’’

Ok la, anyway at the end of the day, I still love my Dummy so so much!! Just wish that he would be able managed and organize his time well to be able to keep me company. Else next time when he officially steps out to society to work and little gem is out he still tell me no time for us. I will cry arh! LOL!! I’m such a cry baby! =x


at 1:45:00 PM

I am back again to update on my little gem…

Had my 3rd appointment with my gynae yesterday morning, currently my little gem is 12weeks 2day old. =) According to my gynae, little gem is consider stable now. He’s growing fine and well… steady heart-beat and straight neck.

My little gem now is 5.7cm long… A month back he was only 1.7cm and within a month he grew 4cm. This makes me realize how amazing life is, especially the growth of a fetus in its mommy’s womb. =P

For the shake of my little gem I had to do blood test yesterday… =’( Pain! I guess I was brave though… because I went in alone to see the gynae without the company of my Dummy. Because my Dummy had to go work… but then Wandee was there with me though, she waited outside the doc’s room. LOL!! Still I was brave right? Because little gem have a coward mommy whom is afraid of seeing doc. Hahaha.

Anyway, it’s a waste that Dummy missed the chance to see his little gem. Because the feeling was so amusing upon seeing little gem on the screen and hearing his heartbeat… but not to fear I have his little gem 2D scan pic for him to enjoy.





My next visit to the gynae will be in another month time. Hopefully we’ll get to know if little gem is a he or a she. =D


at 4:08:00 PM

I am so so bored at home!! =c

Poor me, my notebook is currently down and I had to use my sis's notebook to kill time.

I had a sudden urge to blog but I have no idea what to blog about... my daily life is plain boring! Nothing special as I just eat and sleep. =x Else I'll be hanging around my Dummy doing the usual thing, which is eat, watch TV and sleep. LOL!!

Blame it on my lack of creativity... Totally had no idea on what to share with you people. Hahahas!

So anyway, the Mcdonalds' free cup is back again with 6 different colors for collection this time and weird me actually was so interested to collect it. Its so unlike of me because I didn't like collecting such stuffs in the past as I always thought its rubbish and only aunties would collect it. =S Guess I'm slowly becoming like one typical aunty already. =p



I now think it's pretty hence am going to collect all six to replace the glasses at home. Have you went collecting it too? =D


at 5:47:00 PM

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY...
to all MOMMY out there!!

Though my little gem isn't out yet... but I can still be consider as half a mommy right? =x LOL!!

So anyway, since I won't be getting any Mother's Day gift but I pray hard that I will strike lottery, then I'll be able to get myself something or treat myself to some good food!

Wahahahhahas!!

I'm day dreaming away...

Hee hees! =D


at 2:07:00 PM

5 more weeks to my BIG DAY! Knowing how fast time fillies and each hour the clock ticks… I so wish that it ain’t true. Its not coming, I wish.

How funny things can be… it’s like when I was younger, I always dreamt about getting married and living together happily with my future hubby. But now, the feeling of it, the feeling that I am facing now is totally different from how I used to have. The pressure of it some how makes me feel like running away. Call me a coward, indeed I am because I always wish I could run away whenever, whatever problem hits me. =(

Probably because I am a grown-up now, I have come to realized so much more… like how cruel reality can be, and that things around me which I have gone through so far has made me grow till what I have become today.

Lately, I am getting more and more attached to my family, to my home, to my precious dog, to my beloved room and bed. It all seems to me that time is running out for me. What a funny sentence to describe all this. It should be a happy occasion isn’t it?!

Ah… guess I’m just a person with all the negative thoughts to myself while telling people how positively they should be with their life… >.<’’’

Ok, it’s normal that I am behaving this way. I have all the while been so negative about myself and my life.



Anyway…..



Dear Friends, my wedding invitation card is out… those whom I am inviting, please let me know when you will be available so that I can meet you up to pass you my invitation card. And for those that I didn’t invite, I am truly sorry, I do wish to invite all my dear friends to my wedding dinner but as I have limited seats I can only invite a few close ones. Please forgive me and do stay in contact always… Loves. =)


at 2:25:00 PM

I haven’t gone disappearing into the thin air… I’m still alive and kicking. LOL!! Oh well, I’m just making myself a lot more busy than usual by going out often with Wandee and friends, else I would be hanging around my Dummy! =p

So instead of cooping my-self at home, meeting Wandee and friends out is so much a better choice. Been out for movies, window shopping at Cwp, Ikea and Bugis or out for meals together…

Over the week, I had been eating good food, it might not be good enough for you people but its good enough for me. I can’t remember which night that my Dummy brought me out to eat Stingray and Satay for supper… Wednesday night to some Beer Station to had some western food for dinner with Dummy and his friends (the place is really beautiful at night)… then on last Thursday noon (I supposed) had Seoul Garden with Wandee… and on last Friday night was out with Dummy, his family and relatives to Tung Lok, some Chinese Restaurant located at Katong for ala carte buffet dinner that cost us $55 per pax. Though we had like fresh fish and prawns, scallops with XO sauce, shark fin’s soup, Beijing roasted duck… etc… but my heart was tearing. :’(

Not that I have never eaten such expensive food in my life but at such point of time where-by money mean so much to me and Dummy. I heartache for the hard-earned money earned by Dummy had to fly away… I didn’t really feel like tagging along cause I know I won’t able to eat much of the food but Dummy say its for advance Mother’s Day celebration for his mom and grandma, I cannot say “No” to it. What’s more it’s to good food. =x

As for Saturday night, Dummy accompanied me home to celebrate my mommy’s birthday together with my family. Again, had good food, there was shark fin’s soup, fried fish with Thai-sauce… etc… but the food doesn’t taste nice at all. So we ate a bit and went to buy pizzas home to eat. Swesen’s strawberry ice-cream cake for my mommy and that’s all for that night.

And for last night, Carmen treated me for Durian (Thanks Carmen, oh did I mentioned, she treated me to the movies too). Seriously, I had never had such expensive durian before and I felt cheated by the durian seller.

It was those Styrofoam packed durian and on the box wrote $25 per box with the origin of the durian on it. Upon seeing the price, I didn’t want to buy it because its way too expensive for me… but then the durian seller told me he will give me discount price $10 per box. So I thought it wasn’t very bad. Then the durian seller starts his sales tactics by pushing me and Carmen to buy the remaining 5 box of durians for him but I told him it’s too much for us as there are only 2 of us eating, so he suggested 3 boxes. We didn’t take his offer and ask for 2 boxes only, so he said ok… but he packed 3 boxes for us and ask me for $60!!

I was like what the… heck is this. I told him off by telling him I had never had such expensive durians and always will stick to those cheap cheap $2 kinds. Then he said this is different… blah blah blah. We argued and he asks for $10 lesser this time. I cannot be bothered so much and told him that I don’t have that much money with me and I am only left with $20. As Carmen mentioned that she left only $7 in her wallet and that the freaking durian seller happen to see some notes sticking out of my purse… he ask us for $35. And I told him off again… “Eh, I still need to travel home later lei, I don’t live nearby. Cannot be you ask me to give you all my money and ask me to walk home later what.”

So this time he gave up and ask us for $27 and packed us only 2 box of durians. Paid him and off we go… feeling so mad that I was fuming. Why on earth is there such kind of person that die die want to squeeze dry your money for their own benefit?! Where’s their job professionalism?! I know you people must be thinking I’m insane. Because I am actually talking about professionalism with a durian seller?! HA! But correct what… the Earth is always advancing and people are always upgrading themselves ma. And even if I remove the word professionalism, doesn’t he have a heart?! ASS!!

He still freaking dare to ask me to buy durians from him in the future. NO WAY MAN! I rather go else where to buy.

Was discussing on the durian seller topic with Wandee and Huiling after we bought the durians and Huiling was asking me… why didn’t I just reject to it?! Don’t buy since it’s so expensive… I was like “Ya hor, why didn’t I think of it?!” >.<’’’ where have my ‘smartness’ gone to ah?!

And then Wandee was asking us why are the both of us so stupid, cause behind us the auntie was shouting “Durians, 4 for $10, 4 for $10!!” >.<’’’ Argh! At that moment, I so wished to refund it! But fat-hopes lar! The durian seller where will so stupid to refund us our money.

While eating the durian, Huiling then add on that it must be the expensive type of durian that he sell us… that’s why so expensive. My mind was like… “Lao-niang didn’t want to eat such expensive durian, normal, cheap ones will do!” What’s more those durians was packed in Styrofoam box, how on earth are we supposed to know if its origin is really from the 2nd best durian field in Malaysia?! He can just take else where durian to fake us what. After all we all know nuts about durians besides eating it. X=

So anyway, end my story of that freaking durian seller…. Here are the pics I had while we went to the Beer Station for Western food and while eating at Seoul Garden. The rest of the outings, pics are not available because I was too lazy. X=




Its Vanessa's and Jiaming's Beef Goulash with their own brew beer.




Alexis's Fried Chicken with Ham and Cheese.



Dummy's and mine Steamed Chicken with Rice.




Vanessa's and Jiaming's $5 per pint beer.



The nice couple, Vanessa and Jiaming.




Me and my Greedy Dummy. =X



Dummy's favorite "Cili".




My happy boy enjoying his food. =)



What's on the Menu.



Alexis and us.



Me with my favorite candle light stand.



Little Bali and us


















All the beautiful pics taken, thanks to Jiaming. =)(poor quality pics is taken by me, my lousy camera.)







The beautiful place that we had our great western food, though its a bit costly.


And here is Seoul Garden with Wandee...


When we just settle down at our table



Table filled with food after a few rounds to the food counter.



Wandee eating her food ignoring my camera.



Me feeling contented to be able to satisfy my cravings for steamboat.

End~

P.S.: Alright I've got to rush now... meeting Wandee and Carmen at Bugis at 3.30pm. =X