My name is Angeline, you may call me Angel in short. Old friends of mine known me as MeiLin. :)
Twenty candles on the 2nd November '09.
Currently a Home-maker since I gotten the title as Mrs Guan Chenyang on the 28th May '09
and I am a young mommy of one, that makes me known as Dou Mommy.



My Loves♥




My beloved Hubby, Guan Chenyang also known as Dou Daddy.





My beloved Baby Boy, Kesler Guan Kai Si
Known as Ah Dou (Doudou)
Born on 12 Nov '09 via Assisted Delivery with Epidural
Gestation Period, 37 weeks 4days.
Birth Weight, 3.445 kg. Birth Length, 50 cm. Head Circumference, 34 cm.
Delivered by Dr. Lawrence Ang @ Thomson Medical Centre.







You may visit Kesler's Website for more of him. :)





My family, from left to right, My dearest Daddy, dearest Sister and dearest Mommy
Also known as Dou Ah Gong, Dou Ahyi and Dou Ah Ma




My OtherLoves♥



The Famous 3, Dou Ahyi(s)
From left to right, Wandee, Carman & HuiLing





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at 1:04:00 PM

The weather is killing me! =x It’s so freaking hot and humid that I wish I can keep myself in a totally air-conditioned room 24/7. Recently I kept craving for icy cold water, ice cream and even ice kachang. But so sad, I cannot keep taking icy cold stuffs. Hence I only drink cold water when I am out for meals and eat ice cream once every few days. Better than nothing. Hahas!

Can you imagine, the weather is so hot till that extend when I eat the ice cream, the ice cream like not cold one… and the vanilla cream just keep dripping. =( So not shiok.

I had been slacking at Dummy’s place from Wednesday night till Thursday night. Woke up early on Thursday morning to prepare breakfast for Dummy because he says he’s going school at 9am and I wanted to eat breakfast together with him. But ended, while I was cooking halfway, he told me he have decided to go for the afternoon lesson instead as he’s too tired to go for the morning lesson. Felt kinda cheated by him lar, make me wake up so early in the morning to cook him breakfast. So I asked him to go prepare the breakfast for me instead, as my tummy wasn’t feeling very well also. =x And after I taken my breakfast, I went back to sleep.

During noon while Dummy went for his lesson, I end up watching DVDs and TV for the whole afternoon. I did bring my notebook along (because Dumbdumb need use his Mac book for his work) but I was too lazy to switch on my notebook to use. Waited for Dummy home and he bought me western food to eat. Wahahahas! Because I complained that I’m hungry but too lazy to go out to buy food due to the sourcing sun.

We came back to my place to sleep on Thursday night after Dumbdumb went for his basket ball training… and it was our first time together, taking bus and train home to Sembawang. I still remember Dumbdumb kept asking me how we are going to travel back to Sembawang home. As normally Dumbdumb drive, everywhere we go unless we are going JB. And when I told him we are going back by bus and train… he was like “Huh!! Can take bike not?!” He’s such a lazy ass lar. I guess he’s too reliable on his car and bike because if there’s no car or bike to school, he usually would skip that day’s lesson. >.<’’’

I was trying to be nice to tell him to take bike himself and I’ll take bus and train home, but he refuses… and kept persuading me to take bike with him. Like telling me he will ride very slow home, example 10km/hr or 20km/hr or in the middle of the night where there is not much car then go home. LOL! I told him to save it. I might as well go take bus and train home, way faster. Hahas.

On Friday, we woke up and prepared to go JB to choose our wedding photos. Like finally, after postponing from Tuesday to Wednesday then to Thursday and finally its FRIDAY!

There was like 120 photos for us to choose from but because the package that we took only allow till a maximum amount of 28pics, anything more than 28pics or more than 10pages of album will be charged. And it’s freaking not cheap lo. Each picture or per page would cost us roughly about RM100 to 150?! I think so… cannot remember exactly how much but it’s so not worth it. Hence the both of us die die stick to 28pics, 10pages. =p
Then we were also told about extra charges if we wanna add extra service. Like if we want to frame up the sides of each page of our album (so when we or others flip through our photo album), it wouldn’t spoil easily and last longer. It will cost us RM 150. Felt cheated right?! You want more pics, charged, better services, charged, better album, charged. Everything also charges but I guess the charges are still much better than SG?! Tell me it’s much cheaper to take my wedding photos in JB than in SG, please. =/

So anyway, Dumbdumb decided to pay for the extra 150 to frame up the sides. We will have to go back on 16 May to choose the designs for our photo album again… how troublesome. But as long as its cheaper than SG I guess its worth the trouble having to travel in and out of JB after all its not very far from my home. =] LOL!

Back to SG from JB and we had to travel to Paya lebar to arrange for our wedding invitation card. But lazy Dumbdumb decided to go back Serangoon to get car to drive out instead. LOL! Imagine on our way our from JB to SG till we decided to go home to Serangoon to take car, Dumbdumb keep grumbling on how far and tiring it is to train from Woodlands to Paya Lebar. Hahahas. My funny boy, irritating but funny Dumbdumb! =)

Decided on our wedding invitation card and names that will be printed on the card… we went for our late dinner at Old Airport Road. Then home sweet home. =)

P.S.: No pictures for this entry as Dumbdumb didn’t want to bring my camera along.


at 12:55:00 PM

I am back to blog with a 2D scan of my little gem that is currently 8weeks 2days old. =) So glad that we got to see and hear his/her little heart beat last noon. It’s fast but steady beating rate got me amused. Hahas.





My next appointment with my gynae will be in a month time, and by then I supposed we will be able to see my little gem more clearly then now? =p Little gem, I pray that you will be healthy and strong… and that mommy will always love you no matter what happens.

So last afternoon after my appointment, I went to meet Wandee for lunch then to Party World for some singing sessions. It’s been a long time since I last went out with my friend to enjoy… after all I do need my own space to chill and relax a bit ya? =)

We sang and had some laughter together…




She refuses to let me take her face. LOL!


Wandee sing till so "HIGH" that she's standing up. Hahas!


And I know I look awful seating in such manner singing, I just cannot be bothered. Hahahas.

After our singing session, we went to Cwp’s Kiddy Palace to window shop a bit. And while we were looking at baby’s stuffs, Wandee just kept repeating how wonderful it is to have a baby girl and she hope I am having a baby girl. >.<’’’

Poor me, keep hearing baby girl from Wandee and baby boy from Dumbdumb. But little gem, not to fret, mommy will love you fairly be it you’re a baby boy or girl. =)

Then last night after I came home, rest awhile then off I went to bed. Woke up by Dumbdumb’s phone call chatted awhile and I started arguing with him. I know it’s my fault because I am throwing my tantrums again.

Seriously, I don’t know what on earth is wrong with me that recently I have been feeling so stressed up. I don’t know what exactly I am worrying about and what exactly I wanted. I somehow felt lost and the feeling of running away from all the shit has overwhelmed me. I just so hate such kinda feeling.

Suddenly, I just so don’t feel like getting married and don’t even feel like having baby. I just wished I am all alone on my own. Getting so emotional that I cried the whole night… is this normal? Am I suffering from pre-marriage depression or am I suffering from pre-natal depression or both?!!

Times like that would make me wonder, if I do love Dumbdumb or not. At times when I am ok, I know I love him because I had agreed to marry him. But… why times like now I don’t feel a thing? I know its hurtful for Dumbdumb to know that I have such thoughts but I guess at least by allowing him to know, would help me a little, wouldn’t it?!

Yet last night after telling him how I felt, he told me, he too feels the stress… etc… like comparing me with him and others that I am not the only one feeling this shit. And it just made me feel worse. It feels like he doesn’t understand how terrible I am feeling because no one faces the same shit as I do. They don’t think the same way as I am and feeling the same fear that I have.

I wonder… if I am able to be a good wife, a good mommy, a good daughter-in-law. Am I qualified or not?! I just so don’t like the feeling of making every decision having to care or bother about how others think.

After married, would I still be able to make decision on my own accord without having to care how others feel? Can I still go out with any friends to play? Can I still go out till late night? Can I still do all the things I want? Can I still come home and sleep on my own if I feel like to? Can I still run home out of no reason to feel emo and left crying alone on my own? I am abnormal… am I not?!

I need help… someone out there, who understands my sorrows?! :’(


at 1:27:00 PM

Goodness! I am getting more and more excited as the clock ticks... As I will be having an appointment with my gynae at 12 noon tomorrow. So cannot wait to see my little gem. I am praying so hard we will get to see him/her tomorrow lar, because we didn't get to see him/her on my first visit.

I guess my Dumbdumb is as excited as me?!! Cause he will be having a test tomorrow in the noon... which if he were to accompany me to the gynae, he will be late for his test. And of course I did tell him it’s alright that I go to the gynae on my own tomorrow... but he insisted on accompany me there... He claimed that it will be his first time seeing his little gem so he CANNOT miss it! LOL! I guess this is how much he will love his little gem?!

At times I even wonder to myself if my Dummy is doting me or his little gem. I know I am so bo liao to go think of such stuffs. Yet cannot help it because every time I crave for something he will give out reaction like "HUH, go where find/buy?!" Like example last night... I crave to eat Bak Ku Teh, his reaction was "Huh, so late go where eat? Then he will start all his grumbling... “just now got so much food to eat you don't want eat, now you wanna eat Bak Ku Teh ah?!” And being the evil me, always push the blame to little gem, saying is he/she wanna eat, not me. =x Of course every time despite how tiring or grumpy Dumbdumb is... he will say "Ok la, ok la, I bring you go nearby eat. We will eat cheap cheap one k? Because need to save money." But each time without failed, my Dumbdumb will end up purposely bringing me to eat the nice one. Like the famous Bak Ku Teh located at Whampoa which would definitely cost a bit more than others. Then he would be comforting himself saying… “It ok lar, long long one time we eat good food.” Which what he claims, our long long one time is like almost everyday. LOL!!

Sometimes I know it by heart that my Dummy dots on me lots. He loves me and that is why he bothers to go the long mile to get me my cravings which he could have just get it else where cheaper and more convenient.

All that my Dumbdumb has done for me would make me feel guilty for times that I throw my temper at him easily or I just kept whining… =x But… I also treat him not bad hor… I bought him milk tea knowing that he feels like drinking it… I help him pack his room… I would buy him some finger food to eat when I know he’s busy studying cause I know he sure will get hungry after using so much of his brain juice… (That’s what he told me. Hahas!) And when I am in a good mood I would offer to cook him meals… in which I guess so far I only did it twice. =x I know its not good enough still I also good wife hor. =p

And now as I am typing all this out, I am starting to wonder if my Dumbdumb would still love me and pampers me this much after our little gem is out… Or even more than now?! LOL! Guess I am simply too free to keep pondering on all this stupid stuffs. Hahas!

Oh anyway, I am currently finding wedding songs for my wedding dinner and probably for my wedding dvd album. Couldn’t find much to my likings so far… anyone has any suggestions for me? Please recommend me some… your kindness is very much appreciated. =) Thank you.

Lastly, presenting my shuai Dumbdumb…




P.S: I love you, Dummy! =)


at 5:01:00 PM

Recently my schedule had been packed with programs since last Sunday night I complained to my Dumbdumb that I had been very bored staying home for 3 whole days without stepping out of the house, not even a foot.

Hence my very sweet Dumbdumb came to surprised me on the Monday noon, skipping his class to bring me out to shop and breathe some fresh air… Ok la, the fact is my Dumbdumb says he was too tired to go school thus he skipped that day lesson but it was still very nice of him to come bring me out. Hms… I wonder next time after we are married, will there still be surprises from him?! Hopefully there would still be a lot more ah. =p



See my so hiao de DumdDumb, went to do mask while I went bathing. LOL!



Gosh! He better not see this else he will sure to keep whining. =x

So from my house, Dumbdumb brought me to Vivocity to satisfy my cravings for LongJohnSilver. We wanted to shop for our wedding ring at Vivo but couldn’t find any then we decided to go People’s park to continue our search but before our trip to Chinatown… Dumbdumb brought me to a park that has long mental bridge which I don’t know what that place is called. It was supposed to be “romantic” for the both of us… taking our stroll at such nice place… but all the while I kept whining all the way since we left Vivo. Probably because I felt tired after shopping around Vivo and my poor Dumbdumb trying to be nice and kept asking if I’m tired we can don’t go but all he got was attitude from me. I told him off. =x

Of course, nevertheless, I still appreciate his doings lar, just that I kept whining only. Its normal right?! Pregnant woman loves to whine. =X Wahahhahas…








Anyway, it is still a very nice experience to explore the place and worth the effort to climb up the stairs to the bridge. Tiring but worth it, especially when it’s my poor Dumbdumb’s effort.














Standing on the bridge feels like you’re walking on some scary trail. You have to go there to experience it yourself. Those daring ones would definitely says I’m a coward but just imagine those mental plates you’re standing on is like resting on the pillar, not screwed to the pillar and while you’re walking on it and sometimes the mental would produce knocking sound while you walk on it. How scary can!





After the bridge, we move on to People’s Park Complex to search for our wedding ring but failed badly… and was rather disappointed while heading home to rest cause I already feeling freaking tired liao.

Lucky us, later that night, we went AMK central for our dinner and while I went to get my contact lens, Dumbdumb happened to passed by some old-school goldsmith shop and spotted the ring we both liked. Yet another disappointment hit us and that is the size of our ring is out of stock. So we had to choose another design and while I rush to get my manicure done, Dumbdumb stay put and kept pestering the Sales girl to get her boss to bring down my ring size for that 2nd design we chose for me because so suay, my size was out of stock in the shop and just nice they are closing shop soon.

Done with my nails and I head back to meet Dumbdumb and to my disappointment, Dumbdumb told me we couldn’t get our ring that night because the boss rejected to get us my ring from the HQ. Though I was disappointed but I was so worry that Dumbdumb would be even more disappointed lar, because he always wanted to get the best for me. Like every time I wanted to eat/get/do something, he tries his best to get it all for me and if he fails to satisfy my cravings, he worries that I will be upset and it would made him feel like a failure. That’s why I worry so much that he would be so much more disappointed than I am and I just kept saying never mind, it’s ok.

I guess you all would be wondering why are we so anxious about getting our ring that night right?! It’s because… on our following day, which is Tuesday, we had our Wedding Photo Shoot. And how can we take our wedding pics WITHOUT wedding ring?! Lol! That’s why lar. But, but, but… my Dumbdumb didn’t disappoint me that night lar. He surprised me with the ring! LOL! He really stay back and kept pester the sales girl to ask her boss get us the ring, demanding that we want it that night. Dumbdumb was even ok to go get the ring himself at their HQ, but cause the girl say the HQ is closing soon too. Thanks to the boss, he got us our ring as he understands how urgent and important my Dummy wants it. He even gave us a discount for it lar, though not much but still thanks to him lar. Hahahs.

So my whole of Tuesday was spent in JB taking pics, indoor and outdoor. Tiring but I think it’s a nice experience cause it’s a once in a life time thingy. =) And for that night I stayed over at Dummy’s place, KO upon reaching his place. LOL! I was simply too tired to do anything else already. Hahas…

Wake up on Wednesday morning and Dummy prepared breakfast for me… Wahahhahas… I like so xinfu ah. But wonder after marry liao still will have such privilege not. LOL! I also very nice to Dummy ah, while he went school, I pack his WHOLE room for him. Ok lar partly cause I was bored and his room will become my room soon. But still nice hor, cause it’s already so tired being pregnant I could have just laze around or take my afternoon nap instead of packing and breathe in all the dust. Yeah his room very dusty… =x

Done with packing and it was already evening, Dummy was already home. I wanted to help his mommy with cooking for dinner but I was already very tired then his mommy also say tired no need to do liao, asked me to go rest. While resting, I suddenly ask Dumbdumb when will is he going to bring me for fishing and he said, “You want after dinner I go prepare the stuff and we can go fishing lo. But you tired not? Tired don’t go lar, stay home sleep.” But I insisted and said I wasn’t tired. =x Can play I not tired liao. Hahahahas.

After dinner, Dummy went to packed the things ready, fetched me home to shower and get my psp, tibits, stool and out we went for fishing at Sembawang park! Though I didn’t fish and I merely sat there and see Dumbdumb fish I still feel the excitement lar, especially when Dummy caught something. First catch was a baby crab, which I ask Dumbdumb to bring home and keep it as a pet.






Then later was a freaking small fish. >.< why everything is small de ah?! But we decided to throw the fish back… then we realized… our bait is all gone. We brought 3 frozen prawns out for fishing, used only 1 and a half of it and the rest was gone!!

We suspect is the cat that ate our bait! What the… I freaking dislike cats! Argh! Especially after it ate our fishing bait and am being forced to go home with only a baby crab. At first Dummy didn’t want to disappoint me having to go home with only a baby crab. So he tried fishing with his plastic sotong! It didn’t work and got him so tired also… then bo bian lo, had to go home. But Dumbdumb promised to bring me go fishing again! And the next time we probably will be crabbing instead of fishing le… But I guess that would only be after we own self DIY the crabbing net which I offer to do it. Can save money ma, plus I am so free at home. Hahahas.

Ahh… So cannot wait for my next fishing trip. Probably this time round would be with a bigger group? Dumbdumb say he will go organize and ask more of his friends to join us. The more the merrier. Hees.. =)

Fish fish, crab crab… Wait for me k?! We will be back in no time. =x






Introduction at 7:18:00 PM

Test test… Hahahas.. So I guess I’m almost done with the layout of my new blog?! What’s more is there I can add or improve on, suggestions anyone?! Okies, I know I’m kind of lame... because currently no one knows I own a blog. =x Soon, soon, give me time and in no time I’ll let the whole world know. =p

I am Angeline Tan, friends call me Angel in short. Turning 20 this year and am currently happily engaged to Dumbdumb Guan. Proudly announced that my ROM date would be on the 28 May 2009, Wedding Day on the 13 June 2009 and am a young mommy-to-be.

Ok, basically why am I creating a new blog again? Again, because I used to own one… but that contains part of my past memories which shall remain there forever. Memories which I could reminisce in the future. =)

So there are a few reasons behind my “why create a new blog”… Mainly, because a new chapter of my life is beginning soon (REAL SOON) and there’s a small life in me that I wish to take record of. Partly, to kill time when I’m bored which I don’t know in the future would I be so lazy to constantly update it. Lastly, not forgetting my Dumbdumb who so wish that I have a blog to urm… I don’t know why. =x Why ah, Dumbdumb??

My life seems to have changed ever since Dumbdumb stepped in. The period may be short yet it seems like forever to me.

Here, presenting my Dumbdumb Guan and me… Enjoy...

Alright, that's all for now... =)



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