Promise of a Lifetime

Strumming Some Heartstrings

at 3:41:00 PM

I'm sorry to have neglected my blog ever since I had given birth to our precious Doudou.

I must say, it is really EXHAUSTING having and taking care of a new-born baby. It is real stressful, both physically and mentally.

Ever since I got discharged from hospital, back to Serangoon home together with Doudou... Things haven't been going very well and smooth for me. It might have been a short 2 weeks so far since discharged... but many unhappy incident had occured, all these unhappiness that has built-up due to certain issues and conflicts which Dummy and I had.

Dear friends of mine, are well-awared of what's happening to my life since then. I thank you all for being by my side, giving me the ecouragement and support I needed, constantly. I'll do my very best to keep my emotions in control, for the sake of our little precious.

So much so, I really wish that all this Post-Natal Blues, arguements and quarrels would come to an end real soon. I really wish that Dummy Guan, Doudou and I, we'll have a happy family ever-after.

Am really tired of all this unsolved conflicts and issues that has been revolving around the both of us, since the day we got married. I really wish that we both are strong enough to overcome this together, else I cannot imagine what might happen again if we fail to manage it well. I just wish that the both of us can focus on our future with Baby Kesler, instead of bothering about others' (people around us) feelings...

Anyway, for the time being... to keep you readers updated, here to share with you photos of our Doudou. :]

Still at the hospital...

1st night @ Serangoon home

Dou Daddy burping Doudou

Doudou's little hand

"Ultra-man" style

Mommy and Doudou, after "milking"

Sleepy look

Having sweet, sweet dream

Bonding with Daddy

They are my precious love

By the way, Doudou's umbilical cord has dropped a week before, on 19th November's night. :)

So far so good, our Doudou has been doing rather well. Though he's still trying to establish a proper feeding time and the amount of milk intake. He's feeding the maximum amount of 90ml each feed.

Currently my poor boy is suffering from some skin problems around his genital area. It started-off with nappy rash.. but it got worse till the extend that 'blisters-like' bubble are growing around his genital area, together with the peeling of his skin that got his ass super red. Its very heart-aching to see him crying in pain whenever I try cleaning the affected area while changing his diaper.

Lucky my parents helped to bring him to my family doctor last morning. We were given cream to apply on Doudou and thank goodness, his skin problem got better. I pray hard that Doudou will recover soon and get over with these terrible blisters!

That's all for now, I'll be back to update soon.. I promise! :]

Mommy love you, my dearest boy! *kiss

xoxo,
a lifetime promise

at 11:16:00 AM

I'm back! Finally back to blog, this time with my BIG belly gone.

Let us welcome our little Doudou, Kesler Guan Kai Si back to home sweet home! =]

Welcome Home
my
Pretty Boy!

This entry is will be specially dedicated to my precious son, Kesler Guan Kaisi.

Dearest Boy,

Mommy wish you to know that you're my everything and you mean the whole world to me. You're so much precious to Mommy now than before, especially now that you're right beside me.

I wish and hope that you would grow up well and healthy to be a nice, fine, kind and caring man with good characters in-built in you... Of course, as your mother, I will provide you with the best that I can give to you, supporting you throughout this entire life of mine. For as long as Mommy is here breathing with you, I'll provide you with the food and shelter you need, the care and love you require to grow.

Always keep in mind that you have been my choice since the very, very beginning as Mommy have never regretted keeping you with me, not even till this very moment when Mommy is feeling very exhausted. I just want you to know, Mommy will never let loose my hands off you. And if anything were to go astray, Mommy will always be here to protect and guide you through.

When you grow up, please keep in mind of all the sacrifices and sufferings Mommy has been through for you. Please don't let me down, for all I hope is you to grow up healthy and strong with good character in-built. And when someday it's your turn to become someone else Daddy, please let this love pass on ya?!!

Always yours,
With lots lots love,
Your Dearest Mommy.

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I know I am rather late as it have been over a week plus since I gave birth to our Doudou... and I have yet to do any updates till now. Am truly sorry for the delay in uploading our precious Doudou's photo. It must have been a long wait for all of you. Here, a few photos for the time being till my next update. =)

The very first photo our Doudou took. Just born.

Mommy's little sweet heart. :)

2nd Day @ the hospital

I must say Doudou really resembles his daddy so much.
He's our love.

P.S: There is lots of photos in my Samsung S8003 Mobile Phone in which I had trouble transferring them into my pc, for me to upload it to show you people. I am having a hard time figuring out how, any kind soul out there able to help me out? Thanks a million in advance. :)

xoxo,
a lifetime promise

at 2:47:00 PM

I am glad to know there are helping-hands around me if I'm in need of any. I am glad to know there are nice mommies out there whom are so willing to share their experience with me and showed their care and concern. I sincerely thanks all these beautiful mommies, of course my dear friends too... =)

THANK YOU!
=D

Anyway, I just got home from my Gynae's. Went for my usual checkup again, and I suppose this would be the very last post that I'll be posting while I am still carrying my big belly around.

Good news to share... I'll be admitting to TMC tonight at 10.30pm to deliver our precious Doudou as I'm already dilated 2cm and have been experiencing all the cramps and contractions pain.

For now, the pain is still bearable... I just can't imagine how things are gonna be like for later. It's making me feel rather anxious and worry now.

Some how, I feel excited about my admission tonight because I'll be back with Doudou. But on the other hand, I feel a little upset because my BIG belly will be gone after tonight and it makes me wonder if my Dummy would still love me as much as now. LOL!!

Sounds rather funny to you isn't it? I'm sucha weirdo. >.<'''

Anyway, do wish me luck... God blessed me! I pray hard, it won't be so painful. I pray hard it will be done and over soon. I pray hard that our precious Doudou will arrive Earth safely. =)

And till my next post, take great care my dear friends.

P.S. For my dearest friends, you may wish to get the latest updates via sms. I promise, I'll try my best to get back to you as fast as I can. ;)

xoxo,
a lifetime promise

at 12:57:00 AM

I am feeling rather moody right now. I don't know how should I put it, am unable to really describe how I currently am feeling, feel lost perhaps?!

Went for my Gynae's appointment this morning, everything is well and have checked that my pelvis is open already, might give birth anytime soon. But... I was told that there might be 10% chances of me having to go for cesarean, because our precious Doudou is currently weighing 3kg. Though it is an average weigh for a 36 weeks plus fetus, it is still consider too big for my body-built. Hence, Gynae is worrying that my pelvis wouldn't be big enough for Doudou to come out via natural virginal birth. :(

Goodness! Upon hearing such news, it got me rather shocked and worry. On one hand, I am worrying about the pain as I have never undergo operation before, and to me, it sounds like a nightmare. While on the other hand, I am worrying about the medical fees.

I had already spent a freaking 1.4K on my medical bill previously when I had gotten high fever and was admitted to hospital... Now, there isn't much balance left in my medisave account not to even mention cash. This makes me feel even more troubled.

Although my parents had been assuring me that they will be here to help me out, I feel guilty somehow. I don't feel good using my dad's medisave because I fear that both, mom and dad might need those money someday. And with my current finance situation, I wouldn't be of any help at all if they happen to be in need of. =( Of course, I'll always be there for my parents, I'll never forget the kindness and greatness in them.

How, how?! Can somebody tell me how? =/

Now, with every mouthful of food that I eat, I feel stressful. Never in my life had I felt this way before... It's not because I fear myself getting fat, not because I fear having to exercise extremely hard after my labour to remove those excess fats... But I fear that my Doudou is too big for natural birth as he's already kinda big for my size to carry. Sigh.

I pray hard that I'll be able to deliver Doudou via natural birth. I pray hard that both Doudou and I will be safe and healthy. I pray hard that it wouldn't be too painful and tough for me to cope. I pray very hard... that everything will be ok.

xoxo,
a lifetime promise

at 5:19:00 PM

Simply too much updates! Too much for me to blog about... and this causes me to procrastinate a little when it comes to blogging. Not because I don't wanna share it with you people.

So I suppose I'll just roughly blog a little here and there. =p

Last weekend was great. And I really did enjoyed myself!

As mentioned, I was meeting the 3 Dou Ahyi(s) for supper last Friday... It was actually a planned one. When I say 'planned', I mean 'plan it for a purpose', not just randomly for a meet-up supper.

I am really touched by my Dear Dummy and the 3 Aunties for they remembered my birthday and plan a surprise for me with the coordination of Dummy. Seriously, it would have been a perfect plan if I hadn't saw the Birthday cake that Dummy tried to smuggle it home after work. But kaypo me went to check it out because I heard Dummy came home, rushing to the fridge to keep something. It just got me curious because usually Dummy would take his own sweet time to make his way to our room and greet me with a cheerful smile and that night, he did not.

Initially I thought it was only Dummy's plan, to surprise me with a cake and let me had the chance to celebrate it with my 3 good friends since we're meeting-up for supper that very night.

It's only till the later part... while on our way to our destination for supper. I sense some weirdness among Dummy and the 3 girls. Then I thought to myself, maybe the 3 Aunties already knew there's a cake for me.

Cut the story short, the 3 good friends of mine had planned this surprise for me 2 weeks in advance and requested Dummy to coordinate with them. Also my very nice Dummy purposely rush to buy me a Birthday Cake on a rainy evening after his work, to add in to their plan. :)

I shall let the pictures do the talking for this part.

While waiting for Carman to knock off from work.
We both got bored and started cam-whoring.

My shuai shuai Dummy.

I know I look unglam in this pic,
but decided to upload it to share cause
it looks rather funny to me. LOL!

Dummy got impatient with waiting as he's worrying
that the cake he left in the cake would melt.

Reached the Airport, Dummy's intention.

Can see that he's waiting impatiently for the 3 Aunties whom are busy withdrawing $$.
Dummy's anxious about the cake. Hahas!

When was the last time the 4 of us took a group photo together?!

Answer, on my actual Wedding Day.
So when's the next?

With Dummy

Initially we wanted to settle our supper at T2 "Swesens"
but there wasn't much food on their menu to offer us, so
we ended up at "Wang Local Cafe".
I still thought it was "Xing Wang Hongkong Cafe" though, but am too tired to change again.

Huiling rushing to finish up her food. I really salute her for her appetite.
She managed to finish a bowl of mee-siam, 2eggs, 2 toast and a slice of my Birthday Cake that night.

Carman with her toast.

Wandee waiting patiently

while Dummy's getting my Birhtday Cake ready.

Me with my cake.

With Dummy.
Didn't take pics with the 3 Aunties cause I think
we're all too tired and lazy to move our ass liao.
LOL!

We end our night, taking the sky train to T2 for our Car back to home sweet home.
While we walk pass the bench,
I mentioned about how smart the designers were,
to place such benches for people to sleep with much comfort while waiting for their flight in the middle of the night @ airport.

And the Aunties went to try out, including Dummy,
whom already tried before liao. LOL!

It's rather unglam, but they say its really comfortable lying there. >.<'''

Dummy is more special, he got pillow to hug. Hahas!

Dummy's sleepy already.

That night, I received my Birthday present from the 3 Aunties... here's what they got for me.

With a pretty card too.

The messages the wrote inside got me touched and
I felt very fortunate for having them around me
during this HUGE turn in my life.

Loves.
My new Coach wristlet, can replace my old skinny wallet liao.
Hehe!

As for my Saturday and Sunday, Dummy fetch me back to Sembawang home before he went for his night shift. I got to stay till Monday, as Dummy wishes me to be happy on my Birthday. =)

And during Sunday night my parents bought me a Birthday Cake as well as KFC home to celebrate my birthday with me as I was too lazy to go out, what's more its the 15th of the Chinese Lunar Calendar. I eat veggies on every 1st and the 15th, which means no meat for me on that day thus I didn't feel like going out for dinner. Instead I got mommy to bought me vegetarian food home for me.

That night, mommy gave me a red packet as birthday present as she knows I'm in need of $$ more than anything else right now. Hahas. I didn't take any pictures that night as I was too lazy to move and wasn't well-dressed up for picture. :p

On the actual day of my Birthday, Dummy brought me out for a dinner date. Just the 2 of us, rather simple affair. Dummy let me choose what and where I wish to dine for that night... And I chose to try out "Yuki Yaki" @ Marina Square, for they offer this DIY buffet Ice-cream which I long heard of but didn't had the chance to try it out.

Our table full of food, didn't take much picture in this part
as we were rushing for time.
I felt rather stupid with my choice to dine at Yuki Yaki though, after getting our seats. But still we continued with it.

Here comes the DIY Ice cream part...

Dummy looked excited with the making of his own Ice cream.
:)

Busy mixing his rum and raisins...

Me with my Chocolate Chip Ice Cream. The yellow part is Durain-flavour,
Dummy says it tasted awful though.

Savoring his own mixed ice cream.

My Birthday Cake for that night.

My 2nd Cake from Dummy. Hehe!
:)
Not very nicely drawn, but well appreciated!

Blowing the "candles"

There goes my cake...

Dummy happily mixed it with nuts and chocolate chips and ate all of it.
LOL!

After our dinner it's already 9plus coming 10. Most shops have already closed but there's still this shop called Prize Stage. Dummy and I find it rather interesting as it's our first time coming across such shops hence we hang around there for awhile, watching people catching bears.

Dummy did change 10 dollar note into coins for me to play too, but I thought myself its rather wasteful as I'm such a lousy catcher thus I rather save up that dollar coins for me and Doudou's piggy bank. Dummy tried catching with 2 dollar though, he was hopping to catch the Dino toy for Doudou. But failed very badly.

We then decided to end our night, watching Dvd in our room with Air-Con and tibits... as the movie theater at Marina Square had closed already.

In the lift to carpark.

I am so glad that Dummy looks good in this red shirt I bought for him.
Lucky my measurements of his size was right. It fits him very well.
Most importantly, Dummy loves this shirt too.
:)

On our way home...

Enjoying the scenery of the nicely decorated streets.

It reminds me that soon, Christmas will be here.

Should I get a simple gift for Dummy on this christmas?!

I had a nice Birthday Celebration this year... though its simple and a mini one. I really appreciate it lots. =)

In the past, I always thought that I would only enjoy myself if I host a Grand or Huge Birthday Party, inviting all my friends, receiving all the presents and at the later part enjoy the process of unwrapping the presents I had received.

But this year's Birthday totally changed my mindset. I truly enjoyed myself even though the celebration isn't huge or grand, even though there ain't much presents for me. At least now I know, I have my friends, I have my family and my dearest hubby. Seeing their efforts in making me happy, their efforts in finding time to celebrate this special occasion with me stands so so much more important than a grand/ huge Birthday Party and Birthday presents.

Thank you Dummy! Thank you Daddy, Mommy and Sis! Thank you Wandee, Huiling and Carman! Thanks for the mini surprise, the presents, the cakes, your efforts and time. :)

And also Thank you to friends who dropped me sms, messages and even phone calls to wish me Happy Birthday.

Now, I'm anticipating for my next birthday... because that would be my very first birthday together with Doudou around, my very first celebration with my little family. Of course still welcomes the 3 Dou Ahyi and friends.

Loves.

xoxo,
a lifetime promise

Hi. My name is Angeline, I gets older on the 2nd November of every year. Am happily & blissfully married to Guan Chenyang on 28th May 2009, that makes me a home-maker since and I am proud mommy of one

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