My name is Angeline, you may call me Angel in short. Old friends of mine known me as MeiLin. :)
Twenty candles on the 2nd November '09.
Currently a Home-maker since I gotten the title as Mrs Guan Chenyang on the 28th May '09
and I am a young mommy of one, that makes me known as Dou Mommy.



My Loves♥




My beloved Hubby, Guan Chenyang also known as Dou Daddy.





My beloved Baby Boy, Kesler Guan Kai Si
Known as Ah Dou (Doudou)
Born on 12 Nov '09 via Assisted Delivery with Epidural
Gestation Period, 37 weeks 4days.
Birth Weight, 3.445 kg. Birth Length, 50 cm. Head Circumference, 34 cm.
Delivered by Dr. Lawrence Ang @ Thomson Medical Centre.







You may visit Kesler's Website for more of him. :)





My family, from left to right, My dearest Daddy, dearest Sister and dearest Mommy
Also known as Dou Ah Gong, Dou Ahyi and Dou Ah Ma




My OtherLoves♥



The Famous 3, Dou Ahyi(s)
From left to right, Wandee, Carman & HuiLing





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at 12:22:00 PM

I know I'm a little too late...






but still...














Blame it on my laziness that took me sooo long to post it up.

Well, I am just so not in the mood right now. I'm feeling very upset and rather sick and tired of livings.

It was just a freaking small comment... but how did it affect me SOOOOOO MUCH?!!

Seriously, I know I have nothing to fear for I do things with self-conscious and I should hold no guilt. I have done my best, my very best as a daughter, a wife, a mom-to-be and a friend. But this load is suddenly weighing so harsh on me, till some point of time I really feel like giving up. If this were a game, I think I would have long ago hit the quit button.

While everyone around me has been asking me to take things easier and to allow myself sufficient rest... I end up pushing myself ever harder, till the extend that it causes me insomnia, till the extend I got super mad at myself for being so useless.

I know it's pointless for me to keep repeating "now then I realized its so tough to be a parent" for it won't get me anywhere better. I just need to try harder, keep on fighting... for the sake of my little family and my unborn baby. But where have all my energy gone to?!

It just took merely a few seconds, over a stranger's comment, it's enough to get me so so down. How much I wish to tell the world, the worries and troubles I have been carrying with me and everyday as my little bump grows bigger, my worries and troubles gets bigger too.

I wakes up everyday worrying:
-where can I find $$ to save up for my Ah Dou's delivery fees?
-can I still afford my own meal$$ today?
-I haven't finish the list of 'must buy' and prepare for Ah Dou's arrival, where do I get the
$$ from?
-am I able to feed my Ah Dou once he's out, his milk $$, his medical $$...etc...

and the list just goes on and on... never ending. =(

It's really stressful to be a parent, for you cannot afford to think selfishly, always keeping your child's well-being at heart. I must say, it's a lifetime commitment. And although I know I am not in this trauma alone, my Dummy is facing the same thing as me too, should I say he's facing double of mine because as a husband, he not only worries about his son but he worries about me too.

Everyday, I'll just pray harder that we will get through this and be a lot better. I pray that I'll be stronger too.